was out of DATES!
great source of sugar, easy to take on the go, picked them up in bulk (organic) @ Whole Foods.
peace & love
sarafritch asked: I just wanted to let you know I admire you for your self discipline. You're very inspiring to everyone who follows you including me. Great blog!
wow, I’m flattered. to be honest I haven’t been consistent, I’m working on getting my strength up externally and especially internally.
thanks to people like you – I appreciate the support and will keep going (was actually thinking of stopping my blog).
best to you and your journey! don’t ever hesitate to reach out :)
smoothie: 3 bananas, handful of berries, spinach, & water. blend until a thick, pureed consistency
Daily weigh-in: 128.0
YES, I haven’t been updating my blog since what, September!? To be honest, I have been letting school and stress get to me, been letting go of my diet (esp with the boyfriend), haven’t been handling myself very well. (I’ll post in further detail in a bit).
This is what happens when I eat better (my body is sensitive to salty foods). Daily weigh-in: 125.8.
This post is dedicated to whenmysexyisright, follow her!
whenmysexyisright asked: I miss your daily posts my fellow Yankee fan girl <3
!! glad to see someone noticed I was away (haha).. just been busy with classes, devoting more time to the computer and my chair. this message just gave me a motivational boost to start posting regularly!! thanks, will get on it, hope things are well with you missy :)
Love is..
Love is the healer. Fear is the killer.
long awaited post..
mentioned wayy earlier how I was going to write why a high percentage of my diet is raw vegan.
I don’t really know where to start, I’ll just ramble off the top of my head. Will try to edit this, forgive my average grammar.
*disclaimer. I don’t try to preach my beliefs. Everyone has their own path, so respect.
*disclaimer. I’m not 100%. For anyone who is an extremist and think labeling myself this is wrong because I’m a hypocrite, respect. I hate labels, I’m not perfect, it’s just easier for me to organize myself. (In my crazy mind).
First of all..
I began seriously working out in high school to get skinny. On a negative note, this consisted of over exercising, small portions throughout the day of eating (can be good, yes), constantly keeping track of my calories, cutting out my social life tremendously and thinking about what I have to do/eat 24/7. Actually, some of those can be good qualities. On a positive note, I was very disciplined.
My weight (like everyone else) fluctuated. On average I was about 105-115 in high school, then got to my peak in college at 144. (There is NO such thing as the freshman 15, it’s FRESHMAN 30!
I constantly research about fitness, health, nutrition. I was very much into the high protein diet. I took protein powders, supplements, and those other stuff - no-explode, jack3d, etc.
I’ve gone from getting 100+ grams of protein a day (in correlation to my body weight) to now about 10 - 15% of my diet. I’ve done the tuna in a can, grilled chicken, etc etc.
I’ve also gone vegetarian for a period of time, which was alright.
Arriving to raw veganism (at least a percentage of how I eat now) works for me. To my belief, it was the truth and worked very well for me. I have a lot of problems eating cooked food - whether it is vegetables, meat, or grains.
*a lot of my reasons come internally & externally, leaning more about myself from how I felt.
I wouldn’t go to the bathroom for 2-3 days, sometimes even up to a week. (yes, I peed).
I bloated very easily from these foods.
I didn’t feel energized. Since I had problems going to the bathroom, the food would still be in me and I just felt heavy.
I’m too lazy to cook.
I don’t feel refreshed. My skin becomes dry and I break out easily.
*really the main reason is that I want to poo normally like everyone else!
So there you have it, why I am mostly raw. The real reason is that I want to poo and I just feel better. I do eat cooked foods from time to time (I’m very lenient with my boyfriend), but then I just don’t go for the next couple of days.
Internally, I also feel better. I got some comments in previous posts about the metaphysical part of the lifestyle, and I have to say, I believe it’s a very important part in this lifestyle, er in any. I will sound hippie, but being consistent on this lifestyle makes me want to love, and makes me feel happy. It’s kind of like a drug that’s good for you. The same can probably go for anyone else on whatever diet they are in. I can do a post on the metaphysical part of it soon enough as well.
Externally, it’s a great way to cleanse your body. Fruits and vegetables are like brooms that sweep up all the metabolic waste and mucus that cooked foods leave behind. Skin becomes clearer, vibrant, hair softer, etc.
Also, I’m a very lazy person when it comes to preparing food. There are fancy gourmet vegan restaurants where they make zucchini lasagna for example, but even I am too lazy to make that. I have a thing against using so many utensils or kitchen appliances that my boyfriend will probably be the one actually cooking. Cooking uses up a lot of heat and electricity, and I also have a thing against using soap to clean. I prefer hot water.
My mind feels clearer and I just want to love and forgive everyone! (I think I’ll do a post on forgiveness later). I just feel pure and good. If that makes sense.
I’m actually very sensitive to cooked foods (even if it’s grilled vegetables). I bloat and actually became nauseous to grilled vegetables (which I had numerous times), my quantity has to be pretty low.
So the main reason is - poop. Oh, and longevity.
east river run
went for run on the east river today. very light, getting my body loose again. some bodyweight exercises, squats, bench pushups in between.
gym
for the second time in months, yippee!
This is what happens when I eat very bad.
Past 2 weeks I can say was - part experimentation, part ignorance. I ate a shitload of food, started around the time of the two back to back baseball games I attended towards the end of September. Then when my boyfriend came over during the weekends, and stayed an extra couple of days over since he was off starting a new job, I ate even more!
Hm.. let me try to recollect - noodle bar, momofuku, rice pudding, frozen yogurt, ice cream, bon chon, pizza, mac and cheese, fried chicken, mash potatoes, fruit, pasta, cupcakes, cake, wraps, burgers, french fries, onion rings, burritos, corn, etc etc.
*not counting fruits, salads, etc.
Interesting to see the change of before and after.
How I feel: What’s done is done. I had the mentality of having a period of time where I wanted to eat everything I never have in the city. Wanted to try what I never had during my stay here - whether they were trendy places or a hole in the wall.
I don’t call it deprivation. Many can say that. In my mind, I tried to consume as much as possible, to get as much stimulation. During each bite, I tried to enjoy, savor the taste of the food. My boyfriend and I would order a feast! (I like using the words :P)
My mind wasn’t there though. Maybe it was because my long period of a stretch of raw/vegan foods. My palate is kind of bland, and I’ve become more sensitive to the foods I eat. Many can say it was because of the large amount of food we would order, that I didn’t appreciate the food, but I found myself trying to enjoy the foods.
I like food. I love good tasting food. I’ve just come to the point where I feel sensitive to taste and feeling. I don’t think I’m so easily impressed by food or taste. I do appreciate food, creativity, compilation, etc.
What the hell are you saying?
Learning through my journey in life, fitness, etc. I get spiritual about food (I guess one can say). Enjoying that my life is a process, there are fluctuations or changes (whether good or bad).
Things constantly change! There are moments where our decisions/life are influenced through education, peers, society, environment etc. We are our own teachers, and I’m thankful I get to experience and have the choice to experience, do, and learn.
Choices, cause and effect, am I making sense? tangent coco, tangent!
dang, I need to make an infographic about this.
I recently purchased my deuter black titan 10 liter bag. Reason I got it is so I can start running again to school. Slender bag, better range for arm swinging/motion. Straps are thin, not uncomfortably cushioned. Good for packing enough for the day: a waterbottle, sketchbook, pens, extra clothes for example.
I like that it has a snug fit, it doesn’t hit my lower back as it is shorter in length compared to my other bags.
Will probably give a more formal review once I start using it. They also come in yellow and red! There wasn’t a red one so I got the black.
hiatus extended
working on senior thesis, portfolio, etc, ETC!! will be delayed in posting regularly and is going to be more active on other tumblr account here
PROMISE will be back with more information!!
Mini hiatus!
I’ll admit, I’ve been naughty for the past few weeks. Sidetracked on my eating habits, haven’t worked out consecutively since Bikram, haven’t updated this.
When I return I’ll probably be 5+ lbs heavier! Due to happily gorging myself on boyfriend food the past 2 weeks. Consisting of ballpark food 2x, Noodle Bar, Bon Chon, etc. Don’t really needed it (of course), just numbingly wanted stimulation.
Time for homework! & Later, Game 3 Yanks vs. Detroit!
